you know you love me

Today I decided to attend a Gossip Girl premiere party instead of studying for exams. I would say it was one of my better decisions of the day. In case you missed the season premiere, here's a recap: Blair is still perfect. Serena is still annoying. Nate is still sexy. Chuck Bass is still Chuck Bass. Dan is still lonely. Rufus is still the hot dad.

XOXO

it's just an illusion caused by the world spinning round

Last night I saw The Flaming Lips and they were glorious. I'm so glad I went and didn't participate or view any college football. I really hate football because I think it's incredibly boring. Anyway. The concert was fabulous. Wayne Coyne is out of control. Even if you don't like The Flaming Lips, the theatrics were enough to keep you entertained. Good thing I think they rule. Giant balloons, confetti and lasers everywhere, all the time. Surreal.

I feel better every day.

marc jacobs + marc by marc jacobs ss12

I always have to view Marc Jacobs multiple times before I form any kind of opinion. This collection was no different. I must say, that viewing the live stream of a show is very different from simply clicking through the images. I find myself obsessed with certain pieces that I hardly noticed when I simply clicked on images and vice versa. Marc Jacobs collection has barely been on the Internet since it closed New York Fashion Week this evening. What better way to end NYFW than with the king of American fashion?

This collection was extremely sporty to me. I think it was the swim cap/headband things. I love the structure of this pantsuit and the alternating greys in the pockets and buttons. I am super girly when it comes to dressing myself and when I have to abide by Western business dress, I always opt for a pencil skirt, but there is something extremely sexy about this pantsuit. No. I don't think sexy is the right word. Strong? This is a completely unoriginal phrase, but it's a masculine shape with a feminine twist. (Gag). Ok and this dress? Didn't even care about it when I clicked through the looks, but it MOVES.
I have never wanted a sweatshirt any more than this seafoam one. Actually this might be my favorite look of the entire collection. Weird choice? Idk. I seriously want this sweatshirt so so bad. It's seafoam green and shiny. I can't explain my attraction to it. Gimme gimme. Next look is just as lust-worthy. I think if this look, with the collar in the seafoam green would be perrrfect. I am surprised at how much I love both of these looks; neither one I would ever choose if I saw them in a store. Maybe the sweatshirt, but then I'd put it back and be like, it's just a sweatshirt, I'd rather have a dress.
I liked this when I clicked through the images, but I loved it when I saw it move. I love love love that red and I would be content with having a pocketed button down in every color imaginable. I think the button down is so versatile and the perfect amount of androgyny. Ok so this last coat? Perfect. My favorite piece of the whole collection. Even more than the sweatshirt. It's just so pretty. And so me. I love pretty, sparkle, shine, glitter, feminine and 3/4 sleeve coats, regardless of how impractical they are.

I didn't include any of these looks, but there a whole bunch of scale-y dresses and skirts, which reminded me a lot of Prada fall 2011. Also, the socks and pointy toe stilettos reminded me of Prada fall 2010. I know the socks + heels has been done a countless number times in every city, but Prada FW10 will always come to mind.
Marc by Marc Jacobs was fun. It was bright, preppy, wearable and American. This first dress reminds me of origami. I'm very into the jacket in the second look, but I think half of my attraction to this outfit is the fact that Karlie Kloss is working it. Girl can WALK. Bow down.
I like this less now that I see it here haha. But I still think it's playful and my spring/summer wardrobe is not complete without some form of obnoxious ruffle detail. I LOVE THIS SWIMSUIT. I love it. Seriously. I'm going to buy it. But really. First I'm going to lose 15 lbs and grow 5 in. Loljk. Not about the 15 lbs though. Because no one looks that good in a one-piece unless you're 5'9+ and 100 lbs. But back to my swimsuit lusting. Seriously though. I love this retro feel and the little pocket flap things are too cute to pass up. MbMJ orange one-piece, you will be mine come summer 2k12.

Simple. Cool. Marc. Love. Ruffle. How many one word phrases can I use before it gets annoying? Too late. I like this skirt a lot.

Marc rules. I worship him. Everything he does is nothing short of perfect, Marc my words :)

oscar de la renta + alexandre herchcovitch ss12

I am weirdly caught up on my school work, so I don't even feel that bad about going drooling over Fashion Week. Except even though I don't have work to do, I feel like I should be studying or something. Whatever. I'm not.

Ummm OSCAR DE LA RENTA. Let's talk about it. So like, Oscar is my favorite designer. I want him to do my wedding dress. I've said it before, but Oscar knows how to dress a woman and make her look perfect. This collection was superb. Su-perb. I think the very first look might be my favorite. That mustard color is insane. The black toile works without looking like a bumblee- no easy feat. I can't get over how much I love the croptop top + voluminous skirt. It's my favorite part about this collection. Love the red and ivory combo as well.

Such a cute little frock this is. Had to include it, because I love yellow. For a long time I wanted yellow in my wedding, but I've changed my mind. After the mustard and black croptop/skirt combo, this beige one is my second favorite. Oh, I haven't even talked about how much I love the hair in this show; it's so nonchalant and went so well with the t-shirt paired with a ball gown look.

Eeee chartreuse! So outrageous enough to work. I would wear this. I would wear this in an instant. I'm glad I'm tan all year round and can get away with wearing pretty much any color. #humblebrag. Mormon girl syndrome to like any dress with sleeves, but really, this is so pretty. I think of all the looks, the hair looks best with this one.

This was the second-to-last look and I thought it was perfectly placed in the show. (The finale gown was stunning, but I didn't include it). This dress reminds me of Rapunzel and every princess story I've ever heard. Sleeves are so medieval/renaissance. Love love love it.

And now we transition into Alexandre Herchcovitch. This collection legitimately made me smile and almost giggle. I'm not sure why. I think it was the round sunglasses (which are popping up everywhere!) and the perfect Stepford wife feel of this entire collection. The fabrics were really pretty, and reminded me of the Orient.

We all know how I feel about bows, so naturally I included this look. So ladylike. Another reason why I adored this collection. I think this next look is the one that almost made me giggle. I love matchy-matchy. I love twinsets and matching your headband with your belt with your watch strap. I think it's cute and put-together and delightfully preppy. This makes me think of the 50's and stay at home moms and movie stars. All at the same time. Oh and airplanes and stewardesses.

I think if Audrey Hepburn was still alive, she would wear this collection. Especially this pale yellow-green with the cap sleeves. Every time I see the boat neckline + the almost sleeve, I instantly think of Audrey. Love both of the bows and the fresh looks of both of these dresses.

This might almost be too many bows, but not quite. I would still wear it. I think it should be said that anything I decide to post in these runway reviews, I would wear. Seriously. Ok how cute is that hat? I hate hats and I'm not sure I would wear these, but they just look like they go with this blouse + skirt combo. I really, really love this look.

But not as much as this look. This is my favorite of the Alexandre Herchcovitch collection. The fabric is so different, and the tailoring of this dress is my absolute favorite kind of dress. It's classic, ladylike, modest and pretty. Everything I try for when I dress. Usually. Haha.

I love clothes. I love Fashion Week. I love talking about the clothes at Fashion Week. Stay tuned for more!

silly little vixens mixes til mornin

I apologize for my recent entries and their content. I also apologize for the overlap between this blog and my Tumblr. I just really wanted both of my social media audiences to feel sorry for me and listen to my whining. I'm done though.

I received an e-mail this morning that brought me to tears, it was so kind and smart. I am done feeling sorry for myself. I am done with my cryptic entries and sad song lyrics. I have been incredibly blessed with sweet, intelligent friends that have offered me advice and comfort, and for them I am so thankful. There are people in the world who have suffered much worse than I ever have in my 19 years. I am healthy. People care about me. I have the opportunity to attend a great university, obtain an education and hope someday to change people's lives as a result. I have things to do and places to see. I am done wasting my time feeling bad about and pitying myself. My life is glorious. I am ok. I accept.

"As time goes on you'll understand what lasts lasts, what doesn't doesn't. Time solves most things. And what time can't solve, you have to solve yourself"

-Haruki Murakami

disposable dixie cup drinking

I am puzzled. I am sad. I am hurt. I am anxious. I can't wait. I want to open my mouth and let everything I'm thinking and feeling and wanting so terribly to say fall out, but I can't and I won't. I am quiet. I keep secrets. I play games and sooner or later, I will lose. I feel small. I feel terrible, but I look fine, and really, I am fine.

I am fine.

need you like water in my lungs

I've said it many times, but I treat this thing like a journal, because I don't keep a real one. In a journal you write about your life- joys, triumphs, challenges, sorrows.

Sometimes the teenage girl in me takes over and all I want to do is whine and vent via social media, so I have chosen my least popular outlet to express how I feel, because it takes too long to write it down and I don't want to talk to anyone. Honestly, I hate cryptic bloggers. I hate cryptic blog entries that are obviously about a particular issue, but the blogger writes the go-to sad song lyrics (Ingrid Michaelson) and posts weird, Myspace-like images instead of saying what's really on their mind. Sorry, I just became that blogger.

I am sad. I feel small. Things happen fast and take you by surprise. I haven't had time to be sad or maybe I haven't let myself be sad. I feel foolish and silly. I've only felt angry for a few minutes, but I think my anger was a facade for my sadness. I'm overreacting. I'm being dramatic. I feel like an idiot. I want to talk to someone, but I don't. I want to cry, and I have, for a few minutes. It's not that bad. I don't know why I think it's that bad. It's not even bad. Someone tell me to stop. Someone tell me to get over myself. Ok, this is enough. I'm starting to annoy myself.

I AM SO SAD BUT I PROBABLY WON'T BE IN A WEEK OR MAYBE LONGER THAN THAT. I DON'T KNOW.

I went away this weekend to Brianhead, Utah. It was beautiful. I rode a horse and saw lots of nature and ate absurd amounts of food.